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sara m.
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Czech Republic
hi people,
my name is Sara and I was born 23.12. in Bratislava in Slovakia.
Today 22.12.2012 I live in Brno in Czech republic. I speak: Czech,Slovakian,English and a little Spanish :D.I study English about 8 years, and when I went in school for the first time I studied 2 years on an European school which
means: subjects only in English, so this school can take some credit of my pretty good English. Even though my "art" is not very good I am proud that I can say that I survived the date 21.12.2012, I survived reading the Hunger Games and I'm a huge fan of them and I won the translation competition in our school :squee:. I'm fan of: Hunger Games,A:TLA,LOK,
the alchemist,magician,sorceress,necromancer.....the diary of the wimpy kid,eragon.
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SPOILER ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF U HAVEN'T READ ALLEGIANT LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




like five days ago I've finished reading Allegiant.....I was completely out of words i was listening to sad songs i was so depressed i just couldn't even think about it but now.... I have to express my feelings...i mean  they could at least die together but omg Tobias will suffer forever :((((((((


SO HERE IS MY FANFIC I HOPE U LIKE IT IT'S CALLED THE MEMORIAL:
-TOBIAS-

 EVERY TIME I WALK THIS PATH I FEEL ALMOST LIKE MY LEGS WILL BREAK AND I WOULD FALL ON THE STONE PATH AND COULDN'T STAND OR MOVE I WOULD JUST CRY, THE FLOWERS IN MY RIGHT HAND WOULD SLOWLY FADE SO AS I. I SHAKE MY HEAD, TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT. IT ALWAYS REMEMBERS ME THAT WHEN I LEFT TRIS  OUTSIDE THE FENCE I ACTUALLY LEFT HER ON HER OWN AND WHEN SHE NEEDED ME, I JUST WASN'T THERE AND I COULDN'T SAVE HER OR BE WITH HER WHEN SHE WAS DYING. TEARS RUN DOWN MY FACE AND I CAN'T STOP THEM. I FEEL SO POWERLESS. I NEED HER SO MUCH. BUT I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT BEING HELPLESS ANY MORE. I HAVE TO FIND ANOTHER WAY TO BE HAPPY IN LIFE AND STAND ON MY OWN FEET.  

I LOOK UP, FACING THE BEAUTIFUL TRIS I LOVE, NO IT'S JUST HER STATUE, HER MEMORIAL STATUE. I HEAR THE FLOWERS I WAS HOLDING FALL ON THE GROUND. WHITE LILIES. CHRISTINA GAVE ME THOSE FROM HER GARDEN. BUT I DON'T CARE ABOUT THEM RIGHT NOW. 
I STARE AT HER ON AND ON READING THE WORDS WRITTEN UNDERNEATH THE STATUE: -MEMORIAL STATUE OF BEATRICE PRIOR, DAUGHTER OF NATALIE AND ANDREW PRIOR, SHOT TO DEATH.

 I FEEL SO WEAK. I GO DOWN ON MY KNEES AND IT STARTS RAINING. I'M ALL WET BUT I DON'T CARE.
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE. I WANTED TO DIE WITH HER I ........ WOULD RATHER DIE THAN BE HERE NOW. THAT'S WHY I CAN'T EVER FORGET HER, BECAUSE SOMEWHERE DEEP INSIDE ME I STILL HOPE TO SEE HER SMILE, TO HEAR HER VOICE, TO LOOK INTO HER EYES, KISS HER AND SAY TO HER THAT I LOVE HER. I WANT TO EMBRACE HER, FEEL THE HEAT OF HER BODY .

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THAT SHE'S ANGRY AT ME THAT I DIDN'T SAVE HER. BUT SHE'S NOT. SHE SCARIFIED FOR CALEB AND FOR THE CITY BECAUSE SHE KNEW CALEB WOULDN'T HANDLE IT. SHE WANTED TO BE LIKE HER PARENTS. SELFLESS. I WISH SHE WASN'T. WE COULD HAVE LIVED TOGETHER FOREVER. 

SOMEONE TOUCHES MY ARM AND I KNOW IT'S CHRISTINA. SHE COMES TO VISIT HER HERE EVERY DAY SO AS I DO. I REALIZE I'M STILL ON MY KNEES TOTALLY WET. I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN HERE. SHE SITS NEXT TO ME. SHE CLOSES HER EYES, CRIES, AND SHE WHISPERS SOMETHING I CAN'T HEAR. I STILL CAN'T MOVE. I DON'T KNOW IF THIS WILL EVER PASS AWAY. SUDDENLY CHRISTINA STANDS UP PICKS UP THE LILIES I LET FALL ON THE GROUND AND PICKS UP THE ONES SHE BROUGHT ALSO. SHE PLACES THEM IN FRONT OH THE STATUE AND I HEAR HER CRYING. I FEEL SORRY FOR HER BUT I'M HAPPY WE CAN GO THROUGH THIS TOGETHER. I STAND UP ALSO AND I EMBRACE HER. I REALIZE I NEVER DID. WELL, I SHOULD. SHE WAS TRIS'S FRIEND. MINE TOO BUT TRIS WAS HER BEST FRIEND.

IT'S NOT A KIND OF HUG I WOULD GIVE TRIS. I THINK THIS IS KINDA FRIEND HUG. AND I THINK CHRISTINA NEEDS ONE. SO WE STAND IN THE RAIN HUGGING AND CRYING, SHARING THE HEAT OF OUR BODIES BECAUSE WE'RE COLD. 
"WE SHOULD RETURN " SHE WHISPERS AND SHE LOOKS AT ME.
I DON'T ANSWER BUT I NOD. CHRISTINA IS RIGHT. TODAY, CARA AND CALEB ARE HAVING A WEDDING IN THE TOWN HALL AND WE SHOULD BE THERE. I STILL DON'T LIKE CALEB BECAUSE I WOULD BE HAPPIER IF HE WOULD DIE INSTEAD OF TRIS BUT SHE WOULDN'T BE. HE'S HER BROTHER, AND I HAVE TO LEARN MYSELF TO LIKE HIM ALSO.

HE HAS TROUBLES WITH HER DEATH TOO, BUT HE PASSED ON AND FELL IN LOVE WITH CARA AND I STILL CAN'T UNDERSTAND THAT. BUT HE DIDN'T FORGET HER. I KNOW THAT. I HOPE AT LEAST HE'S GOING TO BE HAPPY.

I DARE TO LOOK AT TRIS ONCE AGAIN TODAY, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I WILL COME BACK TOMORROW. SHOULDER TO SHOULDER WE WALK WITH CHRISTINA BACK TO THE CENTRE LEAVING TRIS BEHIND OUR BACKS. CHRISTINA PULLS OUT OF HER BAG THREE HAMBURGERS. SHE GIVES ME TWO AND RUNS BACK TO TRIS LEAVING THE HAMBURGER THERE. I STAND AND WATCH HER. SHE IS SO STRONG. SHE BRINGS HER FLOWERS FOOD SHE'LL NEVER EAT AGAIN AND SOMETIMES, SHE SINGS HER A SONG. I'M NOT THAT GOOD, I JUST KEEP CRYING AND FALLING DOWN DROWNING  IN SORROW. I ADMIRE THAT. WHEN SHE COMES BACK WE EAT THOSE TWO HAMBURGERS WHILE WE WALK. 

TODAY WAS A SPECIAL DAY. I WAS 10 YEARS AFTER TRIS DIED AND I UNDERSTAND THAT CALEB PICKED THIS DATE FOR HIS WEDDING.
IF SHE COULD SEE HIM RIGHT NOW I THINK SHE WOULD BE HAPPY. I HOPE SHE IS HAPPY. THERE UP IN HEAVEN.



  • Mood: Tearful
  • Listening to: we remain
  • Reading: finished allegiant
  • Watching: catching fire tv spot
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: bacon
  • Drinking: icecream :(

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:iconsha-nie:
Hi!Hug  Thanks for the +fav !!!
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firila12 Mar 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome :squee:
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sootiestrike Feb 26, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the favorite on my LoL fanart! ^^
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firila12 Mar 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're very welcome :DD :squee:
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mathaku Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nice gallery! And I loooove your ID picture :happybounce:
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firila12 Jan 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you very very much! I've seen your gallery as well and it's stunning ! keep up your awesome work!

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mathaku Jan 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
anytime :) and oh, thanks a lot! you too!
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:iconmko1115:
Happy Birthday!!!!! :D :D :D :cake:
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firila12 Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ooo thank you!!!!
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You're very welcome!!!!!! :D :D :D 
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e-MMasArt Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Tribute zo Slovenska na dA-čku <3 *tears of joy* Som spoznala tvoje cosplaye *-* mimochodom úžasné a závidím ti luk ^^
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firila12 Dec 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
dekuju <3 sem teda z česka ale sem i napůl slovenka;D to luk není :DDD jenom hnědě nastříkaná plastová tyčka a klacík jako šíp :DDD děkuju kamarádka mi pořád říkala že vypadám jako Katniss tak sme se rozhodly je udělat :D
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e-MMasArt Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Není zač ♥ Tak popravde to vyzerá úplne ako luk :D Ale tak kreatívne no... :D Ja som na Vianoce teraz dostala luk - normálne živý skutočný reálny a neviemešteaký luk! A proste strielanie je fakt najlepšia vec na svete! To musíš vyskúšať! Nemáš za čo... fakt ste to pekne vymysleli! Hug A prepáč za neskorú odpoveď, ale tak som sa trochu stratila v mojom message boxe :/ Btw: thx za watch Heart Heart 
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firila12 Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
já miluju střílení <3 vždycky jsem to zkoušela na nějakých hradech a tak je to můj sen :3 no ale dostala jsem k vánocům i nějaké peníze takže uvidím a možná si taky pořídím ;) Jinak až bude sníh tak plánujeme rozšířit náš cosplay o nové fotky no možná i něco natočíme ♥ jsem ráda že si mám s kým takhle o tom psát, a za watch neděkuj máš nádherné kresby <3
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snazzie-designz Nov 3, 2013   General Artist
Thanks for the fave :iconminionblahplz: Have a Llama :iconllamajumpplz:
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firila12 Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome :D
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snazzie-designz Nov 5, 2013   General Artist
:hug:
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MyHeadWonders Nov 2, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Hey thanx for the FAVE, really means alot!!
Minion-Blah=P (Razz) Mindblowing GiveGetCenter-party  

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firila12 Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome :D :squee::squee:
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MyHeadWonders Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Well don't be a stranger and feel free to talk to me anytime!!Hanging Out 3D noes medium Sneasel-Point's Icon Iphone maniac emoticon
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firila12 Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
sure !!!! :squee:
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Tithoyie Oct 17, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you for the fav!
I'm flattered my cosplay gets such good response :)
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firila12 Oct 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome :squee:
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Aleccha Oct 14, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks for watching! :hug:
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firila12 Oct 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome! ?:squee:
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